September 7, 2014

 

 

It's actually September.  The year has gone by so fast. Some days have been longer than others, but its all about how you spend your time.

 

I spent this week as usual, attending yoga and support with the Cancer Support Community.  Watching baseball and waiting on football to start has helped the past few months go by.  Good TV and bad TV always helps, as we all wait for the Fall shows, and the final season of SOA.  It always helps to hear from friends with the phone calls and texts. 

 

I am getting more energy to get more done on my to-do list, which was not easy during chemotherapy.  I am walking more often, and finding it is less difficult each time.  Unfortunately, what will continue to happen for a few months is the muscle stiffness as my body adjusts after chemo.  I told my friends, I will get there, just a little slower...

 

My friends were nice enough this week to include me for some doggie quality time, which is wholly therapeutic.  If my apartment was bigger, I would have a dog or two or three. But I must settle for visits and pictures and Facebook posts.

 

Football has also started, so its time to root for the Dogs, the Rams, and #81.

 

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As I have said before, this diagnosis, this journey, has connected me with so many.  Friends have shown unbelievable support.  Past friends have reconnected, and shared prayers and hope.  I have learned how breast cancer has affected many of the women in my life, and the lives of friends and families.  I am fortunate to hear the stories of survival and tributes to those lost.  Answering questions for some, but just being able to listen to others, has given me the opportunity to find perspective on how to continue to fight.

 

I was reminded by my cousin about my aunt and godmother, who was diagnosed with breast cancer, and lived for many years after surgery and treatment.  We were both too young to remember her being sick, but even if she was, I don't think she would have shown it.  My cousin reminded me that she was up and moving within a year, and was never one to cause worry for her loved ones.  He said I am like her in that way.

 

I spoke with another survivor who reminded me of "moving forward," despite cancer, as it continues to be a part of my life, for the rest of my life. As my treatment continues, I will carry my cancer with me in a fancy purse, because I only have fancy purses.... Anyone can choose to let cancer or any disease, or any struggle, defeat you.  It will kill you if you allow it.  Living with breast cancer, living with difficult treatment, and accepting its reality, is the path I am on.  There is no reason I cannot work, or travel, or enjoy life, as I did before.  Just make adjustments, cause we got stuff to do.

 

Love, Sosa