August 2, 2015
As promised, I have returned for another entry. I took a few weeks off just to take a break. I also work two jobs, which includes Sunday nights.
I hope things are well with everyone, as my friends have travelled this summer, both for enjoyment and in support of their children in various sporting events.
I just wanted to check in to say its going alright. I stay very busy which does not leave time for much else. I deal daily with bone aches and pain, and hot flashes and fatigue. Ironically, fatigue doesn't lead to great sleep. I manage my symptoms as anyone else manages theirs. People treat all kinds of diagnoses with medicine or exercise or alternative methods. I do the same.
It is not always easy. Some people say I have made the treatment look easy. The medicine makes things easier. But easier does not mean easy. Some days are harder than others for all kinds of reasons. I can only focus on better days ahead.
That is how I seem stronger. By focusing on the things I can affect in a positive manner, and accepting the reality that exists. I admit there are days I do not feel as strong. There are days I feel alone, and days I feel like its hard. But I remember, chemotherapy is hard, treatment is hard, surgery is hard. Dying is hard.
So until it comes to that, this is easier than it could be. I focus on what I can handle. I focus on remaining strong. And I rely on the strength of others to help me when it gets hard.
I will return with another entry the first Sunday in September. Email me directly if you want to chat before then.
Be well, Love, Sosa
