January 18, 2015

So this is my current situation..

This week I was brave.  I went without a scarf or hat to cover my head.  In public!

It took meeting with the hairstylist who cut my hair last year, Candace, at Citrus Salon.  You may remember her from one of the first blog entries.  She reassured me that my hair was growing back evenly and healthy. She endorsed some products which I hope will encourage thickness and evenness. She even did a pixie workshop the following day!

I am more comfortable with my hair now than I have been since losing it all.  But it took some steps to be brave.  My head still gets cold, and when I wear a baseball cap, I feel like I look like a boy.  Its not fun to lose all your hair.  

But its not supposed to be.  Its just one more hard thing to deal with and to accept. Its a temporary scar.  There are more battles and scars to come.  It is with the support of family and friends that those battles will be a little easier to fight.  

 So I choose to be brave.

Love, Sosa

 

January 11, 2015

Thank you everyone for returning to the blog.  Thank you for sharing and talking about the blog with friends and family.  Last week was very difficult for my community and we are all very grateful for the support of each other.

Losing someone is hard.  Losing someone to cancer is hard.  Losing a friend to breast cancer is hard.  Its scary to think that that could happen to me.  Its a scary thing.  Its a reality check for anyone who had chemotherapy or any cancer treatment.  Going through the battles we do, fighting the fights we do, we are literally fighting for our lives every day. 

You are a survivor from the day of diagnosis.  Each day you choose to live changes your perspective.  Old wounds can be healed. Friendships become more valuable and relationships take on new meaning. 

Things can be different.  I am taking advantage of every opportunity to enjoy life.  Its not that hard to be positive about things in life.  You don't have to have cancer or know someone with cancer to change your perspective, too.

Don't wait for the bad thing to happen to snap you out of your funk.  Don't wait for the bad thing to happen to someone you love to change how you treat people.  Fight through the hardest parts and see the silver lining.  Believe there is something better. 

Laugh at the little things.  Make plans to do something you keep putting off.  Fight through negative emotions and surround yourself with positive people.  Help those who ask for help, and support those who may not be brave enough to ask for help.  Be a good friend.  Be a good partner.

Be a fighter.

Love, Sosa